Over the last few months I have been through a lot of change.
I found myself at a crossroads in my life that I didn’t want to be in and have been polarised by the thought of making a decision on ‘what’s next’ for me.
It’s funny because when it comes to making a decision for someone else I’m fine – but when it involves me or my immediate family I am so afraid of failure or doing something ‘wrong’ that I get completely overwhelmed by it.
I have felt very lost after being made redundant after over a decade in my corporate world role. I honestly had no idea what I wanted to do next, and I had so many, SO MANY, opinions thrust at me on what I should do next. The only problem was that I had no idea what I wanted.
The corporate, high flying career that I thought I always wanted and that I had worked so hard for just didn’t fulfil me in the way that it use to. My priorities had dramatically changed since becoming a mother and I had no idea what was next for me.
Whilst it may be easy to say that you can do anything you want to, and achieve any dream you put your mind to it’s not easy when you actually don’t know what your dream is anymore… what exactly is it that are you trying to work towards??
For me I was lucky enough that I had the capacity to have some time to figure out what was next for me so I took the advice that a select few special people in my life gave me, and I just enjoyed being a stay at home Mum.
Once I finally was able to relax and let go of a lot of the anxiety and stress of trying to make a decision everything started to fall into place… life is funny like that sometimes…
I now find myself on a completely different career path, once that fits me perfectly. It fills up my soul and had made me a better, happier and healthier person. I believe I am a better wife, mother, daughter and friend because of this.
I have a long journey ahead with work and study to achieve my next dream, but it feels so good to have a dream again to work towards and to truly feel fulfilled in your life.
It’s a cliché but life really is too short to be unhappy. So my advice for what it’s worth is to try and hold on through the uncertainty that life gives us all.
Try to be strong, and keep going even when you feel that life is so confusing, overwhelming and hard and that you can’t see your way out of the fog.
It does get better, it really does. I think that sometimes we need to go through the difficult times to really open our eyes to how blessed we are and what we have.
My recent journey has really shown me those amazing gems that I have in my life that are always there to lift me up, support and encourage me. I have some very special cheerleaders in my life and I feel very, very blessed that they have chosen me to love and support and I can’t thank them enough for believing in me.
So if you’re in the midst of change, or heartache, or uncertainty please just hang on… it will get better, the sun will shine again and your path will appear… you just have to keep putting one foot in front of the other every day until it does.